July 2009 wrap up



It was a hot month here where I live, that's for sure!
And, couldn't function as I normally do so a couple of books are unfinished, so are my art projects, and some other stuff, along with my house desperately asking to be clean! yikes! Sorry, hot weather makes me go into a total different state of mind;-)

LOL

Well, even that nothing serious got accomplished, the following list makes me all jiggly and happy inside:

- First harvest: a jalapeno chile
- lots of daisies in my dinner table!
- taking my very first drawing class ever! and it is fun, not that easy but fun!
- had the most lovely vacation ever in wine country
- got to see Portland, Oregon for the first time and love it!
- played pool
- Watch lots of movies! And some were really great.
* away we go
* the hurt locker
* moon
* both the documentary and the movie Gray Gardens
* Marley & me
* music and lyrics for the 150th time ;-) LOL
* Lymelife
* my sister's keeper
* jarhead
* the hangover,crazy funny!
* cinema paradiso, my all time favorite!
* kit kittredge
* the loss of nameless things

I am ready for August!
hugs,
Carmen

Queen of all things Awesome ;-)


Inspired by Gloria's post, I am writing my own 7 things of why I am so Awesome!!!
LOL
yes! Here it is:

1. The best gift I have ever been given in my life is to be the mother of a sweet, beautiful, incredibly smart and healthy young girl who happens to be academically awarded often and I get to be congratulated all the time and that is AWESOME!

2. I enjoy life fully, I enjoy myself and others. I get delighted and amused easily by nature, flowers and grass, the rain, the moon and the stars. And that is super AWESOME!

3. I can do whatever I decide to put my heart and head, I am strong willed, passionate and stubborn at times and love LOVE love that about me. I am proud of my positive energy and enthusiasm, even if I decide not to do a thing, I enjoy it, too.
My love for life is mucho grande.
And, I don't give anything for granted. I specially enjoy the now because tomorrow who knows. And that is mucho AWESOME :-) LOL

4. I have learned (and keep on practicing EVERYDAY) not to let anything get me down and let it go. Fear and pain are my teachers. And healing in the company of my imagination and creativity together is the best, there is nothing better than making little pretty things like jewelry, or collages or decorating or gardening while Angels are whispering sweet things to me, fairies are giggling and dancing in the garden, and mermaids combing and playing with their hair and treasures. Don’t you love this world of mine? Join me! It is an AWESOME world!

5. I am a great cook, a concoction artist!!! and inventor! I make yummy cookies and soups.
Yum AWESOME!
More LOL

6. I am an observer of things, animals, and people. I am extremely curious and want to know it ALL, super di duper AWESOME!

7. I carry a camera with me everywhere and take pictures of everything and everyone, I want to capture beauty to look and enjoy all over again
isn’t that AWESOME, too?

It is AWESOME to be me!!! Viva la mia vida! LOL

I hope you had fun with this list.
If you wish you can share here your own awesome lists or write your own post in your blog and please!!! let me know if you do, I would like to read and learn more about you.
xxooxx,
Mermaid Carmen

My hair



Playing with my hair is a must ;-)

LOL

hugs,
Carmen

Perfect



How was your weekend? I want to know, please share!

Mine was artfully fun perfect, and that included a very sunny gorgeous weather, and several great movies, too.
Moon in the movie theatre, and the rest at home (Cinema Paradiso, Religulous, and Kit kittredge)

Muchos hugs;-)
Carmen

For the love of bracelets











I know, I have way too many! and love love love to wear lots of them at a time in both of my wrists, I love their music and the way they announce me ;-)

Some of them are handmade by me or by special people for me, some are bought, in fact, every time I visit a new city, I try to look for a new one as a keepsake to wear, some are as old as I am, some are vintage and old, some are inexpensive, some have a good value. I have them in lots of colors, I have silver, gold, glass, fibers and some are made of scraps of sewn fabric.

For sure, they ALL are meaningful to me, they all have a story close to my heart.
They are my very own unique mermaid bangles ;-)

How is your weekend going?

hugs,
Carmen

p.s. Thank you very much for your comments, your friendship and loving care.

My reading list





This is what I am reading or planning to read these days.
what's new in your bookshelves?
Hugs,
Carmen

p.s. I thought you may want to see one of my very favorite corners of my cottage by the sea, that's where my bookshelves, rocking chair and some of my knick knacks are. Also, right next to them is the table where i enjoy to create and play ;-)
Wishing you a great weekend!

Weepy

Okay.
This week has been "a very weepy" kind of week for me.

And no, It is not pms. And, in my life dictionary says that is okay to feel weepy or weird sometimes.
So here! I am weepy.
Not in a bad way or too sad, just goofy weepy!
very sentimental and sensitive.

I noticed it first when I was walking the other day during my lunchtime and started to think of something and tears started running down just like that!
And then, You all know this documentary moved me deeply and the movie too.
By the way, Drew Barrymore is my new favorite actress ;-)
This lovely blog post also got me all into some sort of deep thinking.

And now, I just came across this video, I cried, smiled and laughed all the way to the end, yes, I am a sea of tears! (You have to watch it!) the good thing like I mentioned before, it is not sad tears actually they are okay tears. I am calling them cleansing tears ;-)

Now, I've got a little secret I wish to share with you ;-)

If you could open my notebook (the one I carry with me everywhere) you will smile, inside there are lots of lists! oh yes!
They are all special lists.
One of them is kind of like, well, not sure what to say about it here right now but it gets updated regularly ;-)

What's about?
Well... It is a list of all the songs I am planning to play one day if I ever make a commitment with someone ... one day.
And it is only songs because that's all I want (and that's how my soul would love to express my commitment.

Here, not a secret anymore!
40 yrs old and wishing for a partner for life, someone to grow older with.

Hey! That's okay! That's what I want, And besides that, I am cute, and I am a very good woman, LOL !!!
If I don't say it, who will? LOL ;-)

But still, Shhh!!! Please, don't tell anyone about "that list" of mine.
Let's pretend you don't know about my list, and me, I certainly will keep updating my list ;-)
by the way, any song suggestions?

hugs,
Carmen

p.s. Please go and click this link with the video, It is wonderful! I know you are going to smile, too.


I think I need to write again re my this post.
Reading your comments and emails, I think I misled or confused some of you somehow.

It could have been the mix of subjects, I mean, I started the post talking about emotions (and tittled it "weepy") and then I mentioned the lovely wedding featured all over the net and then I kind of finished it by writing about one of "my crazy list of songs" and one of my wishes.

Also, It could have been my English, shyness and the little privacy I tried to keep here.

Well, today, with a much clearer mind, and heart, and with all due respect to you all and myself, what I wanted to share with you all in my previous post was that my week was a little different, and, despite that i couln't understand why the mix of emotions, why i was feeling so weepy, I accepted it, I was okay with that.

Now, here is the other very important (and very honest) statement I wish to make today:

When the time is right, and if it is meant for me to happen, I have the most sincerest desire of making a commitment for life with the right person.
Yes, I want to say "I do" one day.

Here you have it!
I am 40 yrs old, i am a big silly romantic at heart still, and I believe in marriage.

Now, also, please know that this desire is only a part of me, it doesn't stop me or make me all obssessive from enjoying what I got going on right now in my life and please believe me, my life at this moment is lovely and beautiful. That's why being and feeling "weepy" was kind of strange for me.

I feel like I wrote a better post this time, I mean, I am me right now, LOL!!!
very me! passionate, honest and brave about my convictions, and grateful!
and guess what?
I am smiling!

love to you all!
Carmen

I think it is neccesary in everyone's life to go throught a little bit of this some times that way in the end, it makes us realize of the good things we got going on.



Box of treasures





Can you see them? Can you see them?

Oh la la!

Beautiful,
Useful,
Joyful!!!

Yes!

what you see here is one of my box of treasures.

oh yes! I have more! LOL
I will show the rest of them real soon.
I promise you ;-)

hugs,
Carmen

p.s. Can you see that rust piece? The ocean got it for me.
How about those beautiful colorful feathers?
how about my tiny heart shape rock?

beautiful, beautiful, beautiful!

i Love NATURE, and nature LOVES me ;-)

Grey gardens



This story really got me! It certainly moved me to tears, their naive ways and eccentricity amazed me to a point that made me wanted to hug them.
I am so glad I picked it. I think it is extraordinaire and humanly rich!
I will have stuck in my head for a while the scene when little Edie dances in her entry hall holding the flag, and also, the scene when she is showing her "fashions and, for sure, her relationship with her mother
Grey gardens has become absolutely a favorite of mine.
Have you watched any movie lately? which one?

I love movies, I try to watch one a day but sometimes it may take me a couple of days to finish it, depends on how busy my schedule is or how tired I am, too.
Hugs,
Carmen

p.s. Another great movie in that style that I recently watched is "The loss of nameless things" i hope you rent Grey gardens, it is really good.

Goddess



Learn here in my blog something new, learn how to call yourself a Goddess (because you are one) in Spanish, or perhaps remind you of it if you already happen to know it ;-)

Diosa = Goddess

Tu eres una Diosa
Yo soy una Diosa
Nosotras somos Diosas

of so many things!!!
sighs...

Happy learning!
hugs,
Carmen

aDRESSing the situation









This is my collaboration for hope and justice for the women of Juarez: A dress.
Heartfelt and handmade by a mermaid. That's me ;-)

This is a green project, too. All materials in this dress are recycled and/or reused.

If you want to see what is all of this about click HERE

Hugs,
Carmen

I LOVE weekends ;-)




Friday:
to the movies and smiling and wishing for the magic of this to happen ;-)

Saturday:
Learning to draw with Suziblu and some camera play date time ;-)

Sunday:
??? In the making, and at the same time, napping ;-) LOL

for sure enjoying every single moment ;-)

How about you?
What are you doing or making?
who did you see?
where did you go?
tell me everything! I want to know it all!
LOL
how is everything going?

hugs and smiles,
Carmen

Picture perfect



You see, this is the perfect picture of me, or how I look in person.
Style wise ;-) and on Summertime.

No jeans for me, no high heels, no brand names.

Now, If you happen to open my closet you will find three beautiful, FABULOUS pairs of high heels shoes, one coach handbag and denims which fits me just perfectly and are ready to be worn in special occasions or whenever I feel like it.

Other than that, the picture you see in the beginning of this post is me.
Me everyday.

One thing for sure, I love to wear accessories and lipstick.

So just that you know, I may be gardening, cooking, cleaning or just playing in the studio and yes, the music of my bracelets, earrings, necklaces and lipstick are part of the me, Carmen, and, yes, yes, YES! all of these make me who I am too.
It energize me tremendously!

And I certainly do love for the world to see me, to notice me, to see some of my creativity and gifts, and oh boy! Do I get notice?

I may not be the image of a perfect woman but I know I get attention.
And I am not talking of the way guys see me, now don’t get me wrong I appreciate their attention ;-) but I kind of like to hear when other women in a nice way say “only that would look great on Carmen”

Yes, indeed, My accessories are kind of different, handmade, funky, chunky, sparkly, vintage with some new age combinations, recycled and for sure, ALTERED.

Am I eccentric? I probably am and I love it.

Did I say that I wear big huge sunglasses all the time?
That's my signature ;-)

Did I say hats and scarves are part of my "what to wear decisions"?
Te-hee! And I live in a city with a lovely perfect weather so when they see you wearing a hat, they are going to stare. LOL.

My work clothes (because I am part of the 40 hours a week work force) are a little bit more in the office professional attire side which is great, because I need the credibility and respect BUT I make sure that every accessory says I am me somehow.

Since I was really young (15) one of the very first comments (or compliments, because I really really love to hear this, and I still do!) were:
“you look from the sixties” “did you make that?” “love the print of your top” “where did you get that flower” etc etc

I am not sure how to describe exactly my style because it is whole combination of fashions, things and facts like comfort and my type of body, one thing I am certain, my style hasn’t change much, okay, yes, the color and style of my hair changes quite a lot!!! LOL
As I am typing this, My hair is long and Orangey and one of these days, you will see my picture and notice a streak of cerulean blue in my hair, te-hee!

I am me!
In the inside, lovely, spiritual, insecure at times, brave the majority of the times!
And for sure, my outside and looks says: look! I am here!
And I am ready to engage, share and yes, I am having lots of fun, too.

Hugs,
Carmen

p.s. Be eccentric now! Stop wearing all that black! Flowers and colors are supercool! seriously!
More important: Wear what you love, what makes you feel YOU, what makes you BEAUTIFUL and JOYFUL!

p.s. #2 I love to browse all those magazines with very glossy images of clothing, accesories and shoes, sighs! They certainly feed my imagination, and my very unique sense of fashion and style.

Pure experimentation













This is my colorful outdoor workstation right by my deck. Everything at hand.

~ Bristol paper
~ spraypaint
~ stencils
~ a mask is a must!

sunny warm day (91 degrees)
always ready to play!
full of inspiration, creativity plus a big imagination = art and fun = BLISS

happy mermaid for sure ;-)
you gotta love this formula!

hugs,
Carmen

p.s. feeling inspired? yes! It makes me happy! Now, please know that this is the lovely woman and talented artist, teacher and author who has inspired me to experiment with these supplies, Click HERE to meet her (if you haven't)or perhaps to say hello?

Oregon is beautiful

















Portland is my new favorite city!
I had a wonderful time, love their water, yummy! In almost every corner, they have a fountain water, it is the best water I 've ever had for sure, and then one more thing super amazing (at least to me) it was past nine and the sky was so blue! It was for sure super di duper to have witnessed this! Back home, In California, last night, it was dark by 8:30
After this lovely vacation, i have promised to myself to travel more, to have more road trips, and get to see new places. I want, I wish to see Seattle, WA next year, oh yes! I am going to see it, yes! ;-)
hugs,
Carmen

p.s. Powells books rocks! I came back with a suitcase full of books! Best prices and great finds! Yes!


California dreamin'































Wish you were here ;-)
Hugs,
Carmen

p.s. I can't wait to show you more pictures of this city (new to me) I am right now, it is beautiful too! One thing for sure, my eyes and heart are excited and joyful with all of this beauty.
And YES! I think that I may be having way too much wine these days! but heyy! I am here to enjoy, LOL
Cheers !

Wreck this journal

Write or draw with your left hand (me and my freckles, and of course, wearing a crown!



Trace your hand, or both hands! and rings and bracelets, too ;-)



Write one word over and over. HOME was my word, I wonder why?



Creating color themes with substances and some food



I really pretended here because I am not a phone person at all!



I have to admit, I became obssesed with four letter words, it took a couple of days to stop thinking of my words, yikes! and yes Zoom! is a four letter word with an exclamation point ;-) LOL



I decided to circle my most favorite words and underline my second favorite words, te-hee! All for fun!



This was fun!
Thank you for visiting my blog, come back again please!
Hugs,
Carmen