Flamenco with a Mary Oliver poem

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The spirit
likes to dress up like this:
ten fingers,
ten toes,

shoulders, and all the rest
at night
in the black branches,
in the morning

in the blue branches
of the world.
It could float, of course,
but would rather

plumb rough matter.
Airy and shapeless thing,
it needs
the metaphor of the body,

lime and appetite,
the oceanic fluids;
it needs the body's world,
instinct

and imagination
and the dark hug of time,
sweetness
and tangibility,

to be understood,
to be more than pure light
that burns
where no one is --

so it enters us --
in the morning
shines from brute comfort
like a stitch of lightning;

and at night
lights up the deep and wondrous
drownings of the body
like a star.
by Mary Oliver, from Dream Work


I hope you enjoyed this video and poem as much as I did!
Fabulous powerful dancing, right?
how about the poem?

I am still unplugged and working in my new place.
I do have a lot of fun stuff to show you and some pages from my soul journal to also share with you but unfortunately my printer and pc aren't ready yet.
As soon as they are, I will be downloading a couple of videos (a little bit in the very shy side videos, te-hee) to my youtube and some pictures to my flickr for you to see my progress, and my my new mermaid place and new life.
Please know that I am thinking of all of you, I will check your blogs Today and tomorrow but still here in my blog, I wanted to wish you a great Holiday weekend.
My favorites, the three day weekends!!! Yay!!!

Mucho love and light to you,
Carmen, a very flamenco dancing mermaid;-)

"Dance like nobody's watching;
love like you've never been hurt.
Sing like nobody's listening;
live like it's heaven on earth."
-Mark Twain

A new place, a new place!!!

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What a busy weekend I had!!!

As you all know I am in the process of moving. I am currently unplugged. So I won't be around your blogs much this week. But...
By the end of this week I should be all installed in my new place, a new mermaid castle!!!
It is going to be a temporary rental place in a very lovely town for just one year. And then, if everything goes well, (Oh yes, I have big plans!) I will be moving again before the end of the next summer to another town.

And as sad as I have been saying good bye to my dogs, letting go of my memories, and packing and getting rid off of stuff, Let me tell you, I am also getting all excited and very hopeful with my new place and my big plans and dreams.

My life is about to start again!!!
Fresh and anew!
Oh yes! I am following the rainbow and I am taking my dreams with me!

So goodbye ... and HELLO to my hopeful joyful future!!!

I can see BEAUTY in this place already, lots of it!
I see beauty in this BIG transition and yes my senses, my heart, I am all in for this, to enjoy this new life challenge with a new mermaid castle.

I can't wait to give those keys back and never go back there and start decorating and dreaming, in my new place.

I decided that there won't be a living room, and that's ok, instead that area is going to be a mermaid studio! Yes!!! I can't wait to show it to all of you, yes, you will see the pictures as soon as I have it ready, I promise!!!
I am so ready for this change! Oh my gosh! I do need this change so much.

And yes!!! there will be a new mermaid garden, too, maybe a little smaller, but there will be one!!!
Wherever I go there will be one!
I will be creating one again and AGAIN!!!
It will be shaped with love, hope, full of beauty and magic. And full of color and sacredness!

Today, I am joyful, and hopeful! I feel peace and comfortable with my new adventure.
Lots of love and light to you my dear mermaid friends,
Carmen


p.s. yes, I cried a lot last week...

So much about letting go, love, family, worries, fears, pain, a home, a beloved garden...
And If you ask me, yes, by Friday, I had sweetly softly surrendered my sad feelings, and expectations.
I think what it helped me big time was when the new tenants saw the place and my garden, they immediately love it. Of course! And I am so happy for them.
Also your love and caring for me helped me a lot! Thank you very much!
Thank you Forever!

p.s. #2 loved this video very much, Thank you!!!

Be YOU

Sing. Dance. Love. Laugh.

Shout. Scream. Cry.

Think. Play. Create.

Be.

Be a Mermaid!

Creating myself

“Adhere to your own act, and congratulate yourself if you have done something strange and extravagant, and broken the monotony of a decorous age.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Today is the day to congratulate myself. To acknowledge my triumphs!

I think I have been very good these past months.
I have been through it.
possibly the worst I could ever imagine...
things I thought happened only in movies or to someone else...

A situation, the majority of the times I have no idea how to explain it to myself.
A situation that makes me feel a little weak somehow. I can't explain it.
It did hurt me so deeply. It still does...

BUT I try not to think of those days because I am letting them go. I want the sad memories fade forever from my heart.

My spirit could have been broken.
I am glad it didn't.

To be honest, Yes, I am forever changed.

Today, I say: that's ok.
This is making me a better person.

I have been very good these past months at doing several things specifically taking care of all the responsibilities left to me suddenly.
Unfortunately, I had to let go of my pets... One of them was my beloved and constant companion.
Yes, I have been very good controling my tears and my emotions despite the big scary changes and heartbreak.

And then I got surprised with a health problem. Thank God I am allright now, probably it happened just for me to recount my blessings.

I have been alone these past months. And I needed so badly someone to talk to...
Instead I have been thinking loud and quiet. And soul journaling like never before.
There is no denying of my fight against the shadows.
or thinking about the past...
Nowadays only sometimes, everyday is less and less...
Yes, only time takes care of a broken heart.

And thanks to my courage and sweet lovely heart, I am making it.
I will get there eventually oh yes! I am!

I am not minding doing or figuring it out things myself.
On the contrary, that has light my fire more than ever. Oh yes!!!

I think I have been very strong and brave, and for sure very gracious about it.
I also have been good on letting go, forgiving and forgetting the things that just don’t matter anymore.
The house I once shared with him is no longer the same, my garden is only mine in my memories and in my heart.

I keep on believing that things will bloom again...
yes, there is a hope...
there is a light!!!
Oh yes!!! Look the flowers of hope are blooming!!! and the fragance, mmmhh! sighs!!! Yes please! visualize my future with me!
LOL ;-)

Now, Excuse me for just a moment I have to pat and congratulate myself ;-)


Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
Love and light to you all!
Carmen, a mermaid spirit forever

A place to play and pray

Everybody needs BEAUTY as well as bread,
places to PLAY in and PRAY in,
where NATURE may heal and give strength to BODY and SOUL.

-John Muir


Beauty for me is to see my Buddhist flags in my garden dancing with the wind...

I smiled and feel contented with the memories they bring me.

My daughter and I wrote our dreams, wishes and hopes on them one Sunday morning.

Do you want to see some of what I grow in my mermaid garden? Click here

There are notes in the photo, check them out, please?

Just for one thing: My garden

If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something

Even though I know
I don't wanna know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

It's nothing I planned
And not that I can

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Favorite things

It's all I have to bring today –
This, and my heart beside –
This, and my heart, and all the fields –
And all the meadows wide –
Be sure you count – should I forget
Some one the sum could tell –
This, and my heart, and all the Bees
Which in the Clover dwell.
-Emily Dickinson

You bet! I love stuff!
I am a mermaid, I collect whatever looks shiny, pretty, and interesting to my eyes and to my imagination, and yes, I have way too many nice and lovely treasures in my house. And pretty sandals and flip flops!!! LOL
And art and craft supplies!!!

I have a little secret to share with you...
I am very possesive of my treasures. Oh yes! Specially with my jewelry, my books and my dvd movie collection.
Did I say I love purses too. Big purses to collect all the things I find during my walk ;-)

Some of my favorite things these past days are:

-This green dress
-altered art books and soul journals
-pizza
-Tonic iced water with a slice of lemon
-sunglasses
-pretty patterned paper, ALWAYS!!!!
-my tent
-my flowers and tomatoes
-this song
-my cameras and my flickr
-this survival guide
-and this book
-this video, LOL ;-) of course!!!
-this VERY hilarious show

Did I say RED and GREEN are my favorite colors, LOL

What's your favorite things? I want to hear from you, please share!
Love and hugs,
Mermaid me

may I never forget how blessed I am
and how many things I have to be grateful for...
Dear God, let the goodness in my life be how i define myself.
let the strength of the LOVE always win over the shadows.

A mermaid's personality

Ok, here it is, something i haven't shared before.
And that's ok with me because Mermaids are a little bit (I said only a little bit, LOL) complex, you know the water part and the dry land thing part ;-)
And because of that I think I have two personalities...

One is the one who is great with people.
I mean people likes me right away, and trust me A LOT!!!
And I notice that as soon as I enter any room, I get attention and they listen to me.
That's why I know my calling is to be a soul coach.
So yes, I am outgoing, and enjoy meeting new persons, I am NOT scared of judgment. I am absolutely proud to speak English with an accent because I speak with my heart and with great intentions.
I am not boring, that's for sure! I can make you laugh easily. One of my friends says that I am the cutest when I say my favorite bad words in English.
So yes! I LOVE to entertain, volunteer and/or offer help anytime.

Now, the "other" personality is the one who wants to run home from M-F around 3:30, (and Saturdays and Sundays are about the same, too) and enjoy my garden, and gather all kind of art and craft supplies to create whatever pleases my eyes and more important, my soul.
When I am home, I don't want to answer the phone, i avoid any conversation or human contact.
I need the quiet. The solitude. I need to take care of me.
I need my books. I need to do gardening.
I need scissors, paper, and glue. Or beads. Or fabric.
All I want is my backyard and sit and watch how the grass grows.
I want a quiet dinner.
I don't want a night out.
I want to sip wine quietly.
I want to enjoy the moon and the stars and wonder...

So, I am ok with this. This is fine with me to be dual.

BUT...

I DO enjoy to challenge my self, and my middle name is courage, AND want to do a brave, different thing this crazy, full of transitions and scary year, oh yes! I am saying f... it! I am fearless and I am in a new quest and adventure.

I am going to get myself out the house more often and take a class.
I am going to learn how to play GOLF on Saturdays.
A-HA!
you didn't expect this, right?
I am new to this. But I am ready!
And you know what, Golf isn't easy. My first day was hard! LOL
But my friend was so patient and gentle with me.
He is a very good golfer. I enjoyed his golfing talents. And discipline.
Have I said before that I find golfers very interesting, good looking and sexy?
LOL

Now before I go, I have a request for you ladies...
Can you do me a big favor ? not right now but as soon as you can would be the best.
yes?
please???

Can you be a mermaid?
Yes! Be a mermaid!

Be true to yourself!

How about that? Do you like the idea?
LOL ;-)
Yes!!!
Love, hugs and light to you,
Carmen

p.s. I am going to have lots of fun ;-)
p.s. #2 Did you notice my NEW slidehow? Yes, that is you Gemma as a mermaid ;-)

A mermaid's home and garden studio

Thomas Jefferson believed
"Every experience deeply felt in life needs to be passed along -- Whether it be through words or music, chiseled in stone, painted with a brush, or sewn with a needle -- It is a way of reaching for immortality."



This is what HAPPINESS is for me RIGHT NOW:

HOME, yes! My home! in my garden! With my little princess, and Morty (I miss you Tobi so much!)

HAPPINESS is also my flowers, candles, open windows, good food, iced cold water with a slice of lime (yum!), books and poems, ipod, browsing the web looking at photos,and watching movies on dvd in my tent.

And very important, too, HAPPINESS is my backyard garden studio, yes, these are some pictures of MY very unique STUDIO, full of roses and grapes, and cucumbers! And more yummy FRESH veggies ;-)

Yes!!! It is located in the middle of my garden!
Perfect for a MERMAID, that's me!!! LOL
As you can see it is a sanctuary created with love ;-)

And for you to smile with my quirky ways, There is a picture of me (the very last picture in this post) taken about three years ago with pink/purple highlights, LOL

Thank you for your visit and your lovely comments.

It's time for me to get busy!
I am working on my pictures, collaging, and also with a couple of sewing projects, details coming soon ;-)

I am HOME where I belong and I am loved!!!
love and light to you all,
mermaid me ;-)

p.s. I LOVE this art studio. I love her artwork!

Tobie

I miss you Babycakes...
your mommy forever,
Mommy mermaid me

Come away with me

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oh where, oh where

Where in the world is Carmen San Diego????
LOL
Do you need any hints? Here they are!!!
LOL









This is one of the most beautiful, cleanest, fun and BIG city I have ever seen.
My very first time here!
Many times in its very famous busy airport, that's for sure!

My legs did very good, I am almost all recovered and was fine to walk ALMOST to my normal speed, still it was fun to see the city in public transportation, from the subway, a bicycle (of course! I couldn't do this, a young kid did it for me for only 20 dollars, yay!)
I also saw the city from the ferris wheel (that's where some of the following pictures were taken from), also some were taken from VERY well known landmarks, from the tallest building in the USA, and from a taxi cab, too.
oh yes! I was having FUN, lots of it!!!









I think by now you know what city I have been for the last couple of days ;-)
I even took a picture of a mummy, Look!!!
LOL









Yes!!!
I am very happy!
My dream came true: Chicago!

This was a "spur of the moment kind of thing", a surprise for this mermaid from three adorable persons. So please know that I apologize for not being around and not letting you know ahead of time about this.
I will be visiting your blogs as soon as I can ;-)
Next stop...
Boston!!!!
Where my heart belongs FOREVER!

Love you ALL!
I will be back soon!
stay tuned for more pictures ;-)
mermaid me

p.s. I got to witness my very first tornado. It happened while enjoying this.
more pictures? click HERE ;-)

p.s.#2 I just learned that my dearest friend Gemma's husband had an automobile accident and I want her to let her know that I am thinking of her and for Lee, her wild man, for a prompt recovery, I want my dear pink lady to be dancing again.
My prayers, love and hugs are in your direction dear Gemma ;-)

Mermaid Wishes

Sometimes I feel there's a hole inside of me;
An emptiness that at
times seems to burn…I have this dream of being whole.
Not going to
bed each night wanting.
But still sometimes, when the wind is warm
or the crickets sing,
I dream of a love that even time will lie down
and be still for.
I just want someone to love me
and I want to be seen.
~Practical Magic

I WISH

-to live in a farm.
-to live near the mountains.
-to visit often the ocean.
-to be an entrepreneur
-to work as a soul coach.
-to travel each year to the places my heart belongs.
-to sell my collages and jewelry.
-to have my creations published.
-to have a love partner.
-to learn how to sail.
-to FOREVER belong here, to this network of creative like-minded loving persons in my life, That is YOU all MY blog friends ;-)
-to lay down in a field of lavender, grass and wildflowers.
-to go to Uruguay and the Galapagos.
-to go in a cruise again.
-to take a road trip in an rv across the country by myself or with good company.
-to make come true every one of these wishes.

How about you? I know some dreams seem impossible and hard to reach at times. But I still believe in putting them out there. I have a feeling that the more I think of them, the more I put my thoughts and dreams in writing, the more I help myself to make them getting in motion, to make them come true.
I am sure that I know what to do but if someone mocks me and or my dreams, or if they seem ridiculous to others, I am not worry, I am not, how about you? you don't, right???
Please, Don't let's not get discourage!
You and I and our dreams are very important to us and, that's what matters, right?

Don't give up your dreams!
Dream on!
Mermaid me

Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and follow where they lead. - Louisa May Alcott (1832 - 1888)

Before and happily ever after ;-)

I have had my hair about this length and even longer for about 20 years...





I am in my way for a BIG change.
I am ALL excited!!!!
(One of many in the coming months. You will see more, oh yes!)
I am growing!!!
LOL








I am hip!!!
I am a mod BABE!!!
LOL
I feel like Selma Blair... Hey! Hellboy, You can call me BABE ;-)
LOL
I am happy!
hugs!!!
mermaid me (Carmen)

p.s. Hellboy 2 was a very fun, full of action and at the same time very hilarious movie ;-) I love it!

Creative play

This is me at play, oh yes!
play, play, play
You bet! I was having lots of fun.
Just letting it flow freely and peaceful.
My wish is that you too let your inner 8 yr old child and your imagination come out and play? Maybe this weekend, maybe now ;-)
Enjoy your weekend!
mermaid me

Pink

On behalf of the 182 pink artists everywhere, we'd like to personally invite you to join an event happening August 1- October 15, 2008. An event orchestrated by Monica Magness and the collaboration of 182 Pink Artists to raise awareness and donations for breast cancer research.

We're fighting back with ART! Won't you join us?

-Click here for details on how to make donations and how can you help. Also please know that for every $10 you donate your name will go in to our art drawing TWICE !!!!
AND if you EMAIL ME, and let me know you donated any amount of money, I will make sure that a mermaid (that's me!!!) makes you something handmade and heartfelt, Yay!!! LOL ;-)

Let us introduce you to our doll, Love Squared:



Our doll is currently featured in Art Doll Quarterly™, the Autumn issue available TODAY August 1, 2008


We thank you for helping!

"This is an image of a woman shining with the sun, illuminating with the moon. In letting go of perfectionism she loves her soul and in relation to her soul touches the eternal... as we inspire ourselves to create, we let go of what haunts us. Peace enters our soul."

I believe with all my heart this concept applies to all of us, oh yes!

oh!!! Don't forget! if you email me to let me know that you have donated (any amount is great!) I will make you something very unique and special to thank you, oh yes!!!
Let's have fun! Let's open our hearts and wallets ;-)
love and light,
mermaid me