Giggles

I had a fantastic weekend!
full of surprises and lovely happenings!
and miracles!
My garden is looking good, green and blooming.
My home is perfect. Smells peaceful.

I smiled and giggle alot these past days.
I feel so alive Today!

Life is good!

How was your weekend?
Please please share with me!!!

Create

Go into yourself and test the deeps in which your life takes rise; at its source you will find the answer to the question whether you must create. Accept it, just as it sounds, without inquiring into it. Perhaps it will turn out that you are called to be an artist. Then take that destiny upon yourself and bear it, its burden and its greatness, without ever asking what recompense might come from outside.
-Rainer Maria Rilke from letters to a young poet

Dear me:

I miss me...
so many things to do,
so many changes...

I want to fly
I want to soar...

(ok! here it is when my monitoring of thoughts begin and the gently baby steps start, too)

"easy take it easy,
just go with it
whatever it is,
just go with it,
or...
let it go"

I must create.
I accept it.
I am creating a home again.
a mermaid's garden!
with flowers and vegetables.
and a new tree, too!
a new environment!
new ideas and projects.
perhaps a new and succesful etsy shop again?
new adventures?
yes!!!
The past days I have been very daring to do things I couldn't think I could do, be or say!!!
And I am very proud of what I have done,
and I want to do better still.
I am a totally self taught LIFE artist!
and if anyone thinks that I come from another planet or thinks that is better than me or I am not perfect enough then ...
please, please change your directions or journey away from me.

I am here to be me.
and that's all I have to say.

I accept it.
I accept me...
I want to create!!!
I am creating my beginning.
I am an artist (a very talented one!) of my life, dreams, and reality.
I am a light.

Enough about me!
How is your heart and your soul doing lately?
Are you creating something new?
How has been the begining of your spring?

Mermaid me

The rose

"Think of a rose from the time it is a tiny bud.
As it opens to full flower till the last petal falls, it is always beautiful, always perfect, always changing.
So it is with us.
We are always perfect, always beautiful, and ever-changing.
We are doing the best we can with the understanding, awareness and knowledge we have.
As we gain more understanding, awareness and knowledge, then we will do things differently."
— Louise Hay,
from You Can Heal Your Life

May you be ever-aware that, like the rose,
you are steadfastly perfect in every way.

Love and light to you beautiful, perfect, ever-changing YOU! ;-) from beautiful, perfect, ever-changing ME ;-)

p.s. I highly recommend this movie to you.

dia cero

Welcome to my blog!!!
I am very happy to be back and have you here with me!
Yay!
Please know that your emails, love and support meant a whole world to me.
Thank you very much!

Here it is my plan:
I am after a peaceful joyful heart.
A new beginning with a wiser woman: me.
yes, that's the goal!

To be honest, some of my days have been strange and confusing.
but some others have been real good.
And I mean it! to the point where I feel so proud of myself.

And considering that there has been so many things and changes to take care...
But I am almost finished with some of those tasks like reorganization and decluttering. You know all of the material physical stuff around the house.

Now the most important part to take care is: me.

So I decided to make a list of what is in my head and heart about what has happened to me lately.
There are some mixed feelings, lots of questions, doubts, realizations, conclusions, etc.
Then as you will see I divided it in two to make more sense for healing reasons.

Basically this is list one:

I am sad,
I am hurting,
I am scared.

List two:

-I am no longer carrying the burden of someone else’s problems.
-I am working on the forgiveness area. Judgment has been released but pain exists because of my human expectations and then that comes with company: some anger at times specially if I let my thoughts to take over)
The attachment to my partner of several years is strong still and full of love.
Now He is gone and I need to move on and forward.
It may take a while to get over him completely.
But at the same time, his foolish acts are helping me to make it easier on me and hopefully faster.

The great thing helping me is that since I have a driven spiritual being in me, I have been totally aware of my potentials to control and choose my emotions and thoughts. I love myself so I am being very kind to myself.
I keep telling to myself CONSTANTLY that I am going to be ok.

“You’re totally fine. And you’re totally safe. Let’s go back home to yourself. And you’ll remember exactly how great you are, and how great your life is NOW, and how much you are loved.”

With dignity and grace, I am rescuing and helping myself and persisting in knowing that I am not alone and am not going to give up on myself or my life.
Life is a constant change, painful sometimes but also full of surprises and joyful moments involving new beginings and birthings, too and for sure another opportunity for growth and happiness, too.
And if, an "IF" happens I MUST trust in myself (and with your help or reminders if necessary) that I can start KIND and GENTLY to walk back to myself and start from there AGAIN.
These pasts days more than ever I have started my days with intent. With baby steps, of course. And by the end of the day, I have patted my shoulder for being so courageously strong and head and heart smart.
All day, I constantly monitor my thoughts, and my heart, specially, I talk and check on my heart.
So, I think I am doing real well.

This list basically turned into a counting healing list of my blessings in the middle of a life change experience.
-my mind is almost peaceful and sane
-friends and lovely emails
-learning how much I am loved and
-learning about me being a light to a lot of you (WOW!!!)
-this makes me stronger and confident (thank you!)
-reading blogs again and commenting
-started gardening, making decisions and changing things around. This felt SO good!
-seeing my art sewn on the pink artist doll project for the cure last week
-a much more hopeful joyful heart (priceless!)
-flowers
-five pounds gone from my body forever, how this happened?!! Who knows;-)
-planning MY future and organizing my finances (I am so smart)
-a happy serene daughter
-decluttering for a much cleaner environment and energy in my house.
-and ... AND I have a new project going on (giggles!!!) I bet you are curious, LOL Soon I will share my little big goal here yes!!!
-deciding to go for a new blog, yay! My very happy news to myself and I know you all are happy, too.
I thank you for taking the time to write emails and give attention and love to me.
When I needed it the most.
Thank you for your loyalty!
Thank you!
Thank you forever! I love you all!
And yes, Today I begin a new fresh start with a new blog (Yay!)

For me writing something down is the only road out.
I learn and relearn that an unexpressed life is very painful to any person.
Silencing my brain and heart isn’t my thing or for those I love.
I love the written expression.
I love to read about other's journey.
And I wish to share mine too.
I want to share my life, my experiences and show my future success.
I want to show my creativity.
We all are artists.
Specifically when it comes to real life.
there is no schools or official training.
We are artists creating, and at the same time learning.
We all are self taught LIFE artist!!!
So here: I am commiting to myself and you to share once again my timeless creativity and my playful imagination with the doings and beings in my life behind the computer screen..
There is a new wiser and always loving me here!
An opportunity to make my journey once more.
To tell my story. As honest as It can be in the web.
All stories are sacred when they come from the heart and soul.
My story MUST be told.
It will be affirmative and constructive. This world has easy ways and what I wish to offer humbly is rich options and alternatives
I wish to guide others. I have power and purpose. I know what it is true about myself
I am gifted, and loving, and free spirited, and so wise... and I have so many incredible things that are waiting to be shared with this Universe. I have something worth sharing. I am not alone.
I fell down, got up and cried and soon, I know I will be laughing about it.
I will be shining. I am shining.
Life is good.
I believe in miracles and love.
Today is a miracle!
My heart is open to love.
Today I am fearless!
Today is absolutely a beautiful day!!!
I am a real beautiful person and a shining star in this Universe.
I wish to become a truly complete human being ;-)
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning.
I DO believe in magic, miracles and love.
love and light to you!

mermaid me