Captured Mermaid Jar

Don't stop believing!
Hold on to the feeling! oh yes!!!

LIVE Out Loud
LAUGH Out Loud ;-)

Make that your mantra and resolution for this coming 2009
It certainly is mine ;-)


How did you do that? a couple of friends of my daughter asked when they saw this mermaid sitting in my deck getting some California sunshine, and when i was about to answer he said (and I am hoping i can typed his words in the exact same way he express them) "she is a mermaid herself, she can only do that, you see, that's dedication, focus, passion and desire to believe in magic and possibility, in the good in everyone and everything"

I went speechless.

And well, yes, I am a mermaid, believing in possibility, while making my dreams come true creatively with fun and lots of playtime, with no expectations, only this moment counts and yes, to be honest, "that moment" listening to him talking of my passion and calling me a mermaid...
sighs!!!

.........

When the time was right, I noticed the light, In an elevator, I am not sure for how long, but i certainly remember a morning, now i have learned that for several years we shared the same early elevator but only like i said when the time was right I noticed that pair of blue eyes ;-)

All of this time, He patienly waiting for me to look in his direction. Me? my eyes and heart were in a different direction and situation, learning and enduring, and then one very sad day, I realized that my ex partner was living in a world of illusion and I couldn't fight it, he really believe that was real...(tears)
I was alone with no help only my love for him, yes I did love him very much, so deeply, I wanted so much to be with him forever, live my fairytale with him but that didn't mean much to that person, no way ever to win over his weakness...
and then, as expected, he wasn't honest again and left while I was at work...

That was okay, now I know.
Now, I realized he wasn't the one to grow old...

The time came to let go...of course there was hours of sadness and confussion, and of being scared, too. Unfortunately, I couldn't grieve, I had to act to survive and give my daughter and pets a new home, and that meant letting them go too, I couldn't afford that life anymore.
And the time came for the grieving, unfortunately when my body was sick, and, in that time when the anesthesia gets you, not good, not at all! I remember so well, don't know how but I waited for everyone to leave my room and then I asked the nurse if it was okay if I could cry, she said yes.
It came so painful. The following days were challenging days, and to be honest fear almost take over my spirit but couldn't allow it, no way! It is time, time to heal, to stand up, this mermaid is a very courageous fighter! and a hopeful believer! Time to begin, oh yes, to begin again!
START ALL OVER AGAIN!
Yes, yes, yes!!!

Yes, Mari, my very lovely blog reader and friend, thank you for your comment last week:

Carmen, A dreamer of fairies and painting her life on a canvas
An honest person who shares her life with us
Very inspiring-We can always start all over again
Sweet and caring
Lives her life with her arms wide open
The length of the ocean is her love to us
The light of my life
A good friend
Mari

So yes, Someone has told me of his love for me. And slowly and carefully, I have been watching and observing him. He seems a honorable compassionate person, dedicated father, a leader of many and loved by his work partners and friends (he teaches so I have overheard his male students whispering: she is hot! They are talking about me!!! LOL and the girl students keep smiling and love my jewelry).
Yes, this is very cool and such a different environment.
Yes, he is someone so very different from any man I've ever met, and yes, he is very sweet to me and my daughter and makes me laugh and smile a lot ;-) And Did I say he with the most beautiful pair of blue eyes, amazing smile, and handsome ;-) And he is a golfer! a great one! That's right, he is the one who has been teaching me to play golf, and yes, I have to confess to you: I stink at it, LOL. But oh boy! golfers have something, a certain thing, te-hee!

Do you believe in connections? I do, I do, I do!!!!
LOL

Cross your fingers, send me a nice thought and wish me lots of luck on everything.

"Just a small town girl, livin in a lonely world (well not so lonely, so many kindred spirits like you all)
She took the midnight train goin anywhere" (that's for sure)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!
Mermaid Carmen

p.s. Do you want to see a captured fairy jar and jar full of wishes?
yes? Please click HERE or in my old blog, too;-)

Now, if you have a chance and for some more mermaid action, this movie rocks! Bedtime stories is adorable!
Also, there is a little film of my jar HERE but my dog got in the way when i was filming it so that's the white thing you will see on it ;-) LOL

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